faith.......n me.........

ta-daaaa imaaaa!!!!!i'm back....afta 2 months of neglecting this lil space of mine where i spout my innocent happenings unskillfully.....iro iro aru'n ne.....exams assignments and are all but an excuse 4 me to get lazy.....XD

just as how it's been with me and God.....not to say dat i've exactly neglected Him,but still....i've neglected the things i ought to do.....as a christian.......and it's not just a day or two event....but it's been ongoing for quite some time...hmm..perhaps let's say mebe 3 years??it's gotten worse...n got beta b4....but it's practically still hanging by a thread,left without any conclusion or watsoeva......i still do prayers on the run,but neva on any quiet time......coz quiet time dun quite actually exist anymore!!i've only read verses on irregular interval......i really really feel that i'm a lost sheep,strayed away from the path........pretty pretty guide me once more pls????

well i can blame it on being imperfect/human as i am.....excuses are plenty,but rather knowing excuses are only there to cover denial.....i've still continued doing so.....when i do this things i often remember how fervent i was when i was in secondary school....i was so God-fearing...lolx....i mean was so much more God-fearing.....not to say dat it isn't so now.....i was diligent in forcing myself to have a quiet time/prayer every day.....i was reminded of Him in all i do....i was careful not to make mistakes....even mistaken non-mistakes as mistakes......XD...due to my oh how wonderful 'cleverness'....but i noe God has alwayz been a great God....but no matter how many times i've fallen short of His expectations,yet He still brings me back.....just like in the story of the prodigal's son....

(LUKE 15:11-32) ---Many of us have and learned from it the character of God. In a nutshell, there was a rich man who had two sons one of them decided he wanted to receive his inheritance right away. When he did he ran off to the Las Vegas of his time and was living large. Fancy meals, lavish lodging, extravagant relationships, his own personal entourage until the money ran out. Then he was left in the gutter all alone facedown in the waste. In that sobering moment he reflected on his life and remembered that he never went without when he lived with his father. So he decided to return home with his head held low in hopes to live the rest of his life as a nameless servant working his master's fields. When the son neared the estate his father noticed him from far away. The father could no longer hold back his joy and dashed across the fields. Picture the aged nobleman running frantically toward the downcast son. Finally when the father reached his son he embraced him and welcomed him back into the family. He even directed one of his servants to restore his position and prepare a welcoming party. We have all sinned and fallen short of God's best wishes for us. The important thing to remember is that when we decide to come back to him he will run to us and restore us into his family.

God is great huh?!!!at times i really prefer that i wasn't given freedom to choose,so then i wouldn't have to make mistakes,sin and yeah things like keeping myself on track.....haha...but God takes pride in our decision to stick to what he has planned 4 us.....it's like u r happier when sum1 u just taught appreciated wat u did and followed all that u have taught(provided it's the right thing)....den if u forcefully forced dat certain person to do as u say.......1 of free will....and another of authority......of course common sense tells u...the first choice would be best....as POM has taught us,true leaders are influential!!!i love POM.....XD......God is a great leader....seek Him for answers~!!



i just wrote this post in reminder of myself struggling WITH myself......to start i ain't exactly a 'successful' person....therefore i bring 'shame' to the name to many thru this vessel of mine.....aizz....hopefully sumday things will change 4 the beta....just hope dat i really can get back on track soon...hehe sumtin i've been saying all the time.....perhaps like wat leo mention....like shikamaru......willing but just lazy.........my greatest sin...laziness!!!things ought a change!!!!all said but notin done....aikawarazu ne.....just pray that all may fall in plan....and for all my frens and family,may all be well.......

Self-Achieved Goal: 80% left to completion of self-renewal.......

The end of an end.....

2nd last week-Penang

This is wat i did....the Nintendo Wii Head&Score!so far the best game out of the others....:P(at Sri Wonder Complex)


my top score~~!!(max is 555....:P)

had a night out at New Lane to makan wif Keith & Wei Yi b4 going 4 dim sum in the Maxim Restaurant in the morning...

thx Keith & Wei Yi:P(shy keith drivin his new myvi...lolx...)

i love the sea!!!!(proness taken while car is movin...steady boh...lolx...)

great sea view from keith's bro home.....

Keith's bro Putra Place....just beside my bro's apartment....

last week-Melaka

foosball at MYDIN Hypermarket MITC Melaka...(got told to stay in our base area on sunday!!lolx...den we just stayed n played there...lolx...)

it's gonna be a great week....coz there's 4 teams going down to melaka and all staying 2gether....meaning we'd get to go play/visit/makan/jongker!! in melaka during our free time in melaka.....or so we thought....till 1 team had an accident on the 1st nite....

thankfully none of the 2 was hurt....though the car's in a really bad shape.....story is the driver tried to avoid the dog.....a stray dog dat came running across the road....do u beliv dat???guess wat....i do....becoz it happened once to me....i'm just luckier.....



if u din notice the car skidded and spin-ed/stop-ed against the traffic.....

away wif the bad things!!the 1st night we had seafood 4 dinner at portugese village!!!din take the pic coz we were already eating at it!!lolx...the best was this mango juice!!added wif plum juice n plum into freshly made mango...STIM!!!

1 cup afta another!!it's a craving addiction!!!

the 2nd night we went to jongker's street!!!huhu....ate baba nyonya laksa at number 88....which actually is just kari.....haha....but the cendol is great!!!i think we tasted most of the flavour if not all...huhu....din take any pic...coz hand was dirty...lolx....wat's most important is jalan jalan n shopping!!!there's just sum things dat u can't resist....huhuhuhu~~!!

i am RaIoN-i,CasUaly Metoo Beary and PinKi CheeKi Metoo Beary!!!


me sleeping bear n pumpykin has got new members!!!

fren's gf dog....awww the cuteness....^^gogo bubbles!!

there goes my 3 months....not working this week anymore coz my father dun let already....sigh...there goes RM400 this week.....anyway i've got loads of stuff to catch up!!c ya soooonn.....:P

Currently in love wif KSE...muakcz to my lovely KSE!!!
Song of the Post~Someday We'll Know by Mandy Moore & Jonathan Freeman

*~lovingly romantic~*

just wanted to share a touching and lovingly romantic story wif u....dat is....if u're actually into romance type story.....hehe...being who i am....i can only say....romance makes 80% out of my life.....yes.....this story.....is about romance in high school....i present to u....KimiKiss Pure Rouge!!

it's anime....for those of u dat can't accept it i'm sorry....but it's just dat love stories comes in many forms....be it a story told in a drama,a book/novel,a manga or anime.....i love romance.....it's my life and i'll neva stop searching 4 great stories^^....:P...of course there's also friendship to be told but the main point is love....hehe....^^

coming along is a great ending song from this anime.....one thing dat dun happen in our reality is the fact dat while we r having romance there ain't any themed song playing along wif us....lolx....the effect of a song dramatically increases the touching-ness of the story....haha yes....it hasn't failed to make me not cry each time....T.T

KimiKiss ES~Wasurenaide by Suara(her songs r great!!)

posting english lyrics oni since not many would understand....:P
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I can't promise that I won't go anywhere
We might be separated someday
I want to always protect you,
But try to think about this:
The truth is that even when you're alone, you're not

Always consider that, because this sky and moon go 'round
Yes, the truth is that everyone is made to be able to cross barriers

Don't forget
There's always someone thinking of you
So try to smile
Remember
The you inside the mirror is, always and forever,
Able to smile
Don't forget

Always consider that, because this sky and moon go 'round
Yes, because if it's your true voice, we're made to be able to give it to anyone

Don't forget
Because someday I'll surely send these feelings
So keep smiling
Keep remembering
That smiling face inside the mirror
Is never truly alone
Don't forget
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

*mou yada!!usotsuki dareka kizutsuke no yada!!!kimeta n'da!!!mou nidoto kimi wa nakasenai,kizutsukenai,hitori sasenai!!!kimi mou hanasanai!!!!!!*

all random~june's edition....^^

entering quickly already into the middle of the month...time once again flewww so quickly......well just to start i worked at nestle hq last week...huhu....they r havin this setup for product viewing prepared for the euro boss to come n hav a look....and yes the main product is milo and nescafe wif maggi!!


~Milo & Nescafe Booth~

our job was to do n complete the setup required for each department.....it's a hectic setup day.....plus 3 out of 5 of us were all new,including me....hehe.....i think we did kena 'diao' a bit dat day.....hahaha.....but den it's a good experience.....everytin was rushing to complete dat day...at least noe i noe wat's a pop-up system...lolx...it's not a sound or power system(opps my bad....!!lolx...)


exiting the Milo & Nescafe Booth goes into the Milk Department(etc Nespray & other products....)

i noe 1 thing dat's good working wif nestle!!dat's employee's benefit!!wahaha.....whoever's working there can drink free milo,free nescafe wif choice of sugar,cream or sugar n cream(leo sure suka!),free ice cream and wahaha....my favourite!!free BLISS!!!!though Bliss is rather hard to get our hands on...T.T.....when i ular ular a bit i tekan banyak Milo Ais and drink...hahaha.....


the automated FREE vending machine....:P


the toilet very nice oso....huhu i suka.....:P


sigh...leaving nestle is equals to leaving the vending machines, ice creams and innova as well!!..i will miss the smooth comfy and AUTO car in exchange wif a 'luxuriously' manual ford ranger.....T.T...policy policy.....if only i reached 22 years old soonerrrrr......

works gonna end soon....till the end of june.....though it's quite boring already haha i will miss the gang of part-timers all drivin over to omniteam liek gang gang 4 loading....most of all i'll miss the money flowing in....T.T

just wanna thank God for His guidance n journey mercy given during my working journey....Thanks to dat i am alwayz able to stay safe n good...hehe...thanks a bunch my lovey Lord!!

okla....i write short short gua min...no more hard to read???many many paragraph??haha....end here ba.....sleepy liao.....gud nitezzz all..!!!



Me when i was small.....XD


Yes i'm so cute when i was small.....^^




Song of the Day~We Live In Oz by Clazziquai!!!

dear....mummy??

yes duh...this post is about my mum....n me.....it's not a post of sumtin good....or....it's just....now....how i felt....about u....the way u r....the things u do......it's not about right or wrong....things happen the way they are becoz of many things....both becoz of u n me.....wat's gonna be written here...is the things dat couldn't be said out....becoz they'd neva hav the chance to be spoken off....may God forgive me....and u....and all of us...4 the things we do......

yes...i'm sad....becoz we argue more often den usual.....wat prompted me to write this 2day here....is becoz we had an argument this morning....n y did it happen??it all came from being....overprotective.....not liek it's sumtin bad or wat....but it's just...sumtimes....it's alwayz just about how u feel.....n neva once how ur son....how i feel......u've neva put any thought to dat....n in any argument i'd be the 1st to be blamed.....n even when i admit-ed dat it's my fault....i'd only get more stoning to myself....

i wasn't mad or anytin....dat made me gav u the silent treatment this morning....and i noe u care much 4 me....but heck u do it all the wrong way...just liek father did.....i wun say dat i'm perfect as well....but i'm aware of the problems within myself....and gradually i tried to apply changes to them....some with sucess....and some still on the way.....i'm not perfect...neither r u.....it's just wat we r...notin to blame or anytin regarding dat.....

just a normal thing liek asking permission to go out at nite...but u'll alwayz giv ur u think it's so funny and useable statements....things liek "ask them come here find u la"/"ask ur frens go out earlier la...6 oclock go yum cha..."/"ask them go sri petaling la...there oso got things...." and things liek dat....u say things as if they were so easy.....u really think the world revolves around me dun u???or mebe u just simply said them without even thinking them....mebe u dun c it dat way...but it's an insult to me....not once...not twice...but alllll the time whenever i'm asking u 4 permission....
yesterday u dared to ask me to stay in my room use the com n play games to keep me in the hse...n u alwayz said how i shouldn't be stuck in my room wif the computer all day long....it's so darn hypo critic...u just say wateva u wan and howeva u wan....u tell me how worried u r....ur feelings n all...how bout mine??i dun mind not going out...really...just dat statement of urs pisses me off...i find it bullshitting....dun tok to me while watching ur tvb dramas....n look who's the one alwayz blaming me 4 not interacting....hilarious??u mean urself dun u??

wanna noe how i feel???let me tell u this...u said dat u're all worried....dat i went penang n work...so far n all....i am worried too....but u all make as if liek i'm going there happy-go-lucky attitude....u din even noe how pressured i was when i was driving(coz u're all alwayz pressuring me liek dat).....i kept praying 'oh grant me journey mercy Lord....keep me safe....dun fall asleeep.....2 hours more to go....Lord Lord Lord'...the entire freaking time i was driving....just so dat notin would happen n u wouldn't hav to worry me(unsure of coz u're bz holidaying in singapore).....i mean....couldn't u say beta things??liek 'pls take care....drive slowly...dun worry too much....it'll be fine...' instead of 'go call ur boss and let me speak to him....u afraid to tell him let me say.....change location say dun wan penang...too far....no insurance sumore....'can't u hav a lil faith in me??oh wait...mebe not??coz i'm notin but a mere investment of urs??u dun even noe how many times i've cried suffering in silence....i tried to endure ur ways.....look at another point of view.....but u're just too great.....till i can't handle.....n even saying i'm wrong all the time dun even please u....i really wonder.....wat do u wan......

all the same doin hse chores....alwayz askin me to sweep the floor and mop the floor.....wash the car...clean the shelf...wipe the windows....shift ur tape recorder.....fix ur tape recorder....i dun mind doin wat u ask me to.....but whenever i c ur daughter sitting right in front of her computer doin notin who need not even lift a finger or anytin....n yet clean from any lectures....ya she wiped the shelf once den very high n mighty de loh....me n my brother hav helped my father in the office...take boxes of papers n heavy printers n computers n all....waking up early sumore...she??she'd be just sleeping at home...not even lifting a finger to do any house chores....oh...mebe take down the laundry....dat's a heck of a workload 4 her already.....if i slept late i'd be scolded....everyday sleep eat play sleep....

but it's not liek i regret....becoz...i noe wat i had been provided....it's my duty as a son....i helped...not becoz i hav to....but becoz my old father no need take 20 boxes of paper forms(10kg 1 box) 2 floors up on stairs....and den he no need to stress his old body(once i even 'wat dou yiu guat')....help my mum wash the dishes coz she already tire herself from cooking....n sumtimes i cook....though seldom d.....wat kept me from doing chores 100%....is the unfairness dat happens....wat i did....i can tell u...probably not even 40% my sister would hav done....n y is it my fault whenever i voice it out....becoz i'm a failure??becoz i'm not good enuf???i've seen it wif my own eyes...n yet u deny it....wat more can i say....n 2day u said the 1 thing u should neva had....i alwayz think dat i'm a fillial son....but when u say things liek dat....i begin to doubt.....whether i shall continue being 1.....mebe...i should make ur words come true....since u're alwayz right.....since u asked 4 it....mebe when i can no longer be a good person...i shall do so......

i feel so much beta writing them out...though.....they din turn out as i imagined it would be...my writing sucks.....lolx....probably ppl will think dat i'm the 1 at fault....i should love my mum....i should not this n dat....i mean....i still love her....she's my mum...she's good at times....1/10 times mebe.....but she'll neva change(coz she's alwayz right...n not liek she's gonna read all of this...).....n things going this way....lolx...oh well....who needs me anyway.....she's got her beloved daughter and good older son.....wat use am i???i dun blame u....u're still human...i'm just unlucky dat's all....i pray God shall forgive both u n i.....becoz...now i doubt i'd be able to fulfill one of the ten commandments....i wonder though....if sumday.....u lose me....will u be happy.....or relieved???i'm sure......u'll be happier den u r now....

i'm sorry halmonji~J.....i noe i hav a complete family.....in terms of numbers...yeah....but....relationship?? i'm an outsider....i've tried....but i think i'm losing myself.....mebe 1 day...i'll find the answers.....but 4 now...i can only pray dat God can guide me....ease me.....of my pain n burden......the cold war begins......let it be my fault again.....i'm tired....

tagged??

1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
urrrm.....forehead??

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
i'm getting old.......

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
lolx....dun remember....

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
hardly.....

5. Will you ever donate blood?
when it is really really needed.........(i'm afraid of.....ahem...)

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yep

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
God forgiv me if i did so.....

8. What does your last text message say?
"next week lol...i go back home early....."

9. What are you thinking right now?
i need to sleep soon....n i mean soooon.....

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
aizz...who doesn't??

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
2am++

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
lolx...it's free...from working....

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
mebe...mebe not...my head hurts....

14. Who was the last person who text you?
yew

Ten Lucky Person to do this quiz:

1. leng jai yap
2. rebecca
3.timmie
4. kin chung
5. halmonji-J
6. jonathan
7. lyvia
8. sheryl
9. yu ling
10. jeffo


15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
not really in 1....

16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
haha....

18. What is no.1 studying about?
kejuruteraan

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
recently....

20. Is no.4 single?
nop...

21. Say something about no.2?
something wouldn't be able to define how BIG she is...:P

22. What do you think about no.3 and no.6 being together?
hahahaha.....mebe they did once b4.....dun suprise me no more....:P

23. Describe no.9?
cousin who went kampar liao....

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
watch the good show....:P....if dat's ever gonna happen.....

25. Do you like no.8?
u bet i do...:Pin fact i love every1 of my frens....:P

lovin me life...:P

work brought me to tau sar piah island last weekend!!!though probably i'm more attached to mainland butterworth den island but still the tau sar piah,char kuay teow and cendol keeps me there!!!not to forget the wovey-wavey sea....i kinda miss it....looking at it once again while crossing the bridge gives me a calm n sweet feeling.....the sea....is a great sight....i thought to myself....i just love looking at the sea....tried to take a pic of the view from my fone....but....haha....i guess my fone can't produce much of a sight....haha...


jam on penang bridge......pukul 7 lebih....

me...trying to take a pic of the view.....of the calming sea.....

anyhow,work had been great....hehe...managed to be the top performer on saturday though lost out on sunday.....oh well!!at least i managed to outperform every1 else 4 once!!tee-hee!!there's this other promotional booth as well next to ours....wall's durian runtuh and enfagrow....oni recently did i noe dat many products are from nestle....haha....so slow of me....met this guy over from enfagrow....who looks older den me but is actually younger den me by a year....haha....is a fun guy(n he's called johnson...lolx...)...though looking at him....and comparing myself...i probably look imature....lolx....n there's this 2 gurls in his team whom i stole some glances occasionally during work...haha....kinda cute....^^as u noe leh...i shy shy meh...so neva did any tokin to them...haha...till the last hour of work....all of a sudden....almost as if by chance....we spoke....haha....oh they seem quite nice afta all....spoke on ourselves and all....and mind me...lolx...i even skipped work dat hour and chat-ed wif them...hahaha....opps...hope my boss ain't reading this....XD...at least i made more new frens....

anyway i've got a new fone!!it's a sony w705....absolutely lovin it~~!!tee~hee!!thank u very much to my auntie and mummy for getting it from singapore at a much cheaper price!!!(saved around rm500 oh....)though wif this purchase i hav officially used up the entire paycheck i just had...lolx....dear panasonic...pls hurry and pay me my remaining paycheck!!!anyway here's the lovey pics of my new fone!!(ain't a good photographer pls do forgiv..^^)





revival of my cute lil minies!!!welcome back to the world!!^^

working at rembau this weekend!!dun get to go johor but anytin's fine...hehe....do pray 4 journey mercy and blessing oh!!!going to drive boss punya hilux......pressure ohh...but at least it's auto!!!wahahaha.....money money money....come find ur way in me!!!looking 4ward to many things...hopefully....life will turn out great 4 me oh!!!it's been great and hopefully it continues!!hehe...can't wait to get back to uni....kinda miss studying.....4 now....^^

ĥāŘăBǒЈĩ~P sleeeeppzzz!!!pigunhada!!!oyasumi nasaiii!!

y do u tick so quick??....T.T

oh dear....time passes so quick....n guess wat...it's the 3rd week for the MILO campaign!!this time around i'm drivin a ford ranger....haha...n a manual 1 at dat....pains me to noe dat i hav to drive an old model 1 sumore....but thank God everytin turned out fine(pls continue to bless me oh LORD~!!)....in fact...haha i can say i perfected my manual-drivin skills instead...:P...say no more to 'sei for'!!!^^peace*


ford ranger....smelly diesel engine....geng parking leh me...^^

2day is a goooood day!!i actually managed to go out wif frens!!hmm....urrm...mebe just a fren....lolx....kiwi-san couldn't make it....sighzz....so we just ate n toked bout the past...working dayz we had...fun fun they were^^...afta teppanyaki we went to buy our tickets 4 star trek!!it's absolutely fantastic!!!great show....hehehe....very exciting....my type..:P...plus we got to c a cute ticketing gurl as well....(:P)who let us off having 1 student card oni...aww so sweet of u....if u weren't malay i would hav asked 4 ur number!!(well not dat i am racist or anytin....just...really...i doubt there'd be anytin ahead 4 us...lolx...no offence!thx 4 being a memory~~)haha...it's fun to 'gap lui' once again 2gether~~!!anywayz do take carezz u guyz at UK!!let's go out again afta u all come back!!:Pi still owe u 3 ringgit mr joo joo....

2molo need work leh....it's time again....time once again...passes so fast.....took me an hour to type this post out...haha..coz was dota-ing halfway....LOST~!!T.T...oh well..play wif jason ma...sure loh....hahahahaha!!just jokin jason...me noob....paiseh.....it's late...gotta shower....getting old already...

i love u...:P^^peace*(God is great!!)

sign of by my new nickname^^
ĥāŘăBǒЈĩ~P

Mayday....

i've gotten a beta new pt job(feel sorry 4 panasonic coz i keep rejecting work)!!thx to naresh 4 letting me noe bout it.....it's MILO in-store promotion~!!my 1st job is over...n i got to drive my boss's innova....mpv to work...haha feels kinda great but den there's pressure as i need to return it in 1 piece....


yeah...the mpv....^^
this week's headed downwards to seremban....kinda far...dun feel liek taking a car this weekend....but i guess no choice....anywayz just hope dat everytin's well!!pray 4 journey mercy!!!

aizz...though i've done a few weeks of work but i'm all broke....y broke??it alllll started out 1 day....when few ppl said wanna go jogoya!!of course...i wanna go....i've neva been there b4...plus there's a promotion going on....so i paid rm70++(or rm60++ r??forgot)....and den there's my dental fees....around rm150(3 fillings though i oni went for 1 only...2 more left...)....and my biggest....yeah i mean.....my biggest 'white elephant' spending of the period......adidas warehouse sales shoes which i accidentally came across afta following my mom to ikea afta my interview at damansara perdana.....^^


Adidas~Porsche Design

got it cheap coz it's a warehouse stock clearance!!it's only rm200......out of rm350 of it's original price....a difference of rm150!!!i'm lucky enuf to hav a fitting size 4 me...haha it's the only shoes-size left there....the rest were bigger or just smaller....^^...so how could i not get my hands on it...!!it's pretty wif its design...though.....it's the most expensive shoes i've ever bought!!!plus i've not even wore more den 10 times for my dr.cardin shoes(and it's rm99 only sumore)....i wonder when would i wear this pair of shoes.....i pity myself....

and not to mention the ipoh chicken trip dat cost me around rm130!!but it was really fun!!hehe thx to boon heng and yee mun and gang for their hospitality....really makan banyak there....hehe....demo hontou ni tanoshii kata sou!!!din regret not working dat weekend...haha...gua tempurung cukup best la....but i was kinda sick dat day...so couldn't enjoy the fullest but still it's great!!!aizz myself la....T.T

just in 1 month i can already spend so much....dear Rey.....kindly stop spending excessively.....thank u....work hard,earn more money and save save.....until i get my pay-check,i'm totally broke.....80% to self-sufficiency....20% still relying on parents....i shall work harder this 2 months left and gain 100%@!!!aja aja fighting!!

on a side note~~~~(u can just ignore this as it's my own preference....)

read my fren's blog a while ago....n just pondering upon the things she wrote....2gether with the storyline of zeni geba......i am left wondering.....there ARE really really many many kinds of ppl in this world.....there's so many personality as there's so many people in this world....in zeni geba....u can c....how poor can a person really be.....just becoz of 1 person's action....and this action causes reactions and reactions dat amounts to a chain-reactions.....and in the end this reactions brings a diff result....a diff result to the future.....but if the 1st person had chosen a diff path as shown in the last episode.....a diff world is born towards the future.....just becoz of 1 decision....dat'll change the lives of the ppl around u....and the future......therefore we should alwayz think carefully and the consequences of the decisions dat we make....wat sort of decisions??it's almost everytin....the things we say...the things we do...the things we plan....the things we think about....u may say most of it iss just trivial other den the 'big decisions'.....but to others it's probably not trivial at all...as our decisions may affect the future.....pls do think properly....i've experienced this 'future-after effect' once....let's all quit being selfish....and let changes(good changes) happen in ourselves....for a beta world....God Bless....

When u think life's just full of hardships....den u found love.....

Akai Ito~Red Thread is a great dorama!!it's a very compelling movie...the story is base on a best-selling novel revolving around the 'red thread of fate' connecting Mei and Atsushi...It came about when i 1st saw it on Astro...it's being shown 1 of those trailers but i din noe wat title was it till last week when my neighbor Jeff came back from singapore...there i took many j-dorama which can be downloaded at incredible speed over there....it's a darn good drama since 1 liter of tears but this's got more love-romance in it(sweet!^^)....

Lolx..believe it or not...the moment i started watching the 1st episode i've already started crying....haha....i was shockingly touched by the 'first' paragraph shown....there was just so much meaning n feeling when i read dat....watching this drama has left many feelings inside of me dat kept me thinking a lot....it lets u noe dat this world is actually so beautiful...dat there's so many meaningful things in it....just because there's one thing in it....there's this 1 thing called love in this world.....dat when u c everytin around u....there r many dat are decorated with love....u can find many 'moral behind the story' as well in this drama....u get to learn many(out of many many many things) stuff dat happens ocassionally in our lives....but the most important part is the touching story of 2 people!!where they went thru trials and finally ending up 2gether!!i'm sure dat this kind of relationships are everlasting and true to it themselves!!

words can't express how i feel.....actions can't depict how i feel......there's this part in the show where they portray the importance of memories....i believe it's important too...because this memories becomes a part of who we r.....and nice memories have their own scent and whenever u're veiled in its scent your heart can alwayz return to the unforgettable past....none can stop the flow of time but a moment captured in the frame of the heart will never disappear....and it will alwayz giv off a great feeling,both sweet and bitter....and those feelings...2gether wif the memories we made in our heart.....will never fade away....

though dat this story is just base off a book....and there may be many other books around the world,each wif it's own wonderful story....dat which will never happen reality.....but i believe dat as u fall in love,reality....becomes a wonderful story,better den any novel.....or so i learned thru my years....hahaha....love is such a great things.....it's wat keeps the world sane....peaceful and every other good things.....just hearing the song itself makes me shed tears recalling the scenes in the drama.....makes me wonder....when will my wonderful story begin??hahahaha.....till den i can oni keep all my affections 4 later.....well to the future me....appreciate everytin....as per wat u hav decided within urself.....when u read this back in the future....perhaps this will be no more den just a memory.....perhaps u'd be laughing at how silly i was now.....i'll be waiting 4 my destined 1....hehe....

moshimo kimi ga mitsuketa sa....boku wa...zettai hanasanai!!!kakugo shimashou!!!boku no zenbu kimochi de uketomemasu!!!watashi no ume hito wa.....ima mate ta!!

Akai Ito~Destiny of Love by chance...or miracle??

God tied you and i together by our little fingers with a long red string.
This bond of destiny cannot be seen,
and there is no map to you.
So I will fall in love with you when i meet you.

What is the boundary between being friends and being lovers?
Perhaps you only find out once you've crossed it.
My love,it may have started that day.

Our first meeting was by chance.
Our second meeting was by destiny.
If this is true,
is it also our destiny to pass each other by?

Why is it?Why is it?
That we think
it's so important
that we live without hurting anyone,i wonder?

You can't put your true feelings into words.
I can't express my important feelings.
If the two of us could exchange the feelings in our hearts would we see.....
Would we see that destiny was on our side...

There's so much I want to tell you.
There's so much I want to hear.
But,if after learning everything,our love breaks...
Then I'd rather be as i am now.

When I think about my friends....
When I think about the one I like....
There's something important that's always just out of sight...
Is there really anything out there i can count on?

I never even realized
so many people were there protecting me.
The important thing was that I
have to lose them to realize it.

When memories are made
it'll never be lost.
Only kept within out hearts,giving strength
with each passing moment.

Though I am unable to see the red strings attached to our fingers,
there's one thing i am ascertain of....
The feeling between our hearts,somehow connected...
This feeling....yes....it's a mutual love.....

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Akai Ito~PV


HY ~ 366 Nichi

soredemo ii soredemo ii to omoeru koi datta
modorenai to shittete mo tsunagatte ita kute
hajimete konna kimochi ni natta
tama ni shika au koto dekinaku natte
kuchiyakusoku wa atarimae
soredemo ii kara

kanai mo shinai kono negai
anata ga mata watashi wo suki ni naru
sonna hakanai watashi no negai
kyou mo anata ni aitai

soredemo ii soredemo ii to omoeta koi datta
itsushika anata wa au koto sae kobande kite

hitori ni naru to kangaete shimau
ano toki watashi wasuretara yokatta no?
demo kono namida ga kotae deshou?
kokoro ni uso wa tsukenai

kowai kurai oboete iru no anata no nioi ya shigusa ya subete wo
okashii deshou? Sou itte waratte yo
wakarete iru noni anata no koto bakari

koi ga konnani kurushii nante koi ga konnani kanashii nante
omowa nakatta no honki de anata wo omotte shitta

kowai kurai oboete iru no anata no nioi ya shigusa ya subete wo
okashii deshou? Sou itte waratte yo
wakarete iru noni anata no koto bakari

anata wa watashi no naka no wasurerarenu hito subete sasageta hito
mou nido to modore nakute mo
ima wa tada anata anata no koto dake de
anata no koto bakari

HY ~ 366 days

i'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this
even though i knew you couldn't return, i want to be connected to you
it was the first time I felt this way
as time goes by we can still meet occasionally
because verbal promises were natural
i'm fine with it as well

this wish of mine which won't come true anyway
that you would fall in love with me again
such a transient wish of mine
today i want to meet you again

i'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this
before I knew, you even refused to meet me

when i'm alone i start thinking
at that time, should i had rather forgotten(about you)?
but these tears are the answer, aren`t they?
i can't lie to my heart

it's almost scary that i can remember your smell, your action and everything
“Weird, isn`t it?”, please say so and laugh
even though we're separated, it`s nothing but you

i never thought that love would be so painful, that love would be so sad
i realized that i was serious about you

it's almost scary that i can remember your smell, your action and everything
“weird, isn`t it?”, please say so and laugh
even though we're separated, it`s nothing but you

you are someone inside me that i can't forget about, someone who offered me everything
even if you can never return anymore
right now it's only you, just you
nothing but you

ApRiLz!!

n here comes april....!!it's already into the mid of april....so fast already.....well here comes 1 half of 3 months holz 4 me.....hehe started out this month wif a change of wallpaper on my desktop!!loving it every second since....

cool ambiance of colours...*heart*~my angelic afterlow...^^

well...holz started out quite boring at 1st...notin much to do....almost as if intention-less all of a sudden....haha quite lazy to start finding 4 a job as well....but i've got a job!!just finish 3 dayz work at low yat selling camera....my 1st time!!so noob at 1st...lolx...i dunno much about camera....but i learn pretty much a lot from there....so much thx to u all 4 teaching me!!though i felt liek i am much more an obstruction there....haha...a blank piece of paper i am or so they said....well seeing u guyz again this weekend!!cham....previous sales oni 1 camera....this week how....how jek....no more 'all stocks at klcc' excuse anymore...T.T...must jia you achieve sales....come buy camera from me ppl??mari??

oh yeah....i heard from radio while drivin 1 day....it's about punctuality in japan.....punctuality....sumtin dat u can really laugh at at malaysia.....it's so serious....every1's late no matter wat....well...i sumtimes am such as well!paiseh....but den when i heard dat punctuality in japan is so 'efficient' dat even the trains arrive on time and it cannot be used as an excuse for being late(train is a major transportation for work or anytin else)...if at anytime given the train was late,there'll be a card stating the train was late....so cool!!it's sumtin i'll put in heart to learn!!punctuality....to the fullest...well so far.....hehe still okla....i hav not arrive late 4 work or anytin else.....hope i can keep it up~!!!learn to be punctual!!

2day is so pek chek!!! >.< !! went bowling wif my cousin,her fren and juicytinsy.....not only i lost 2 round!!!T.T but sumore the lane we playin is faulty...lolx....imagine my ball masuk longkang can get spare.....u say skill boh??lolx...but okla..lost nvm...just game ma....but most pek chek is afta play finish jor wan go back....but i cannot unlock my car!!!jipet remote!!twice already happen!!T.T.....press til 40 mins oni can finally *dit dit*......wat the....!!!pek chek!!! >.< !!paiseh make every1 wait..sien sien......den go back d......meet wif rubbish lorry....lolx....things go so ngam???lorry block the road sumore....aizz.....so many things so coincidental??sumore this sort of things..!!

oh here's the sad things.....last sunday my father just complained of a pain in the lower right abdomen.....went hospital in the midnight check but they dunno wat is it(plus pay so exp!)...suspected kidney stones coz the kidney is swollen afta ultrasound taken....but i just feel the doctor liek so cincai....i mean....r u actually checking them properly??so slousy i feel sumtimes doctors...they're not doing it whole heartedly enuf.....den ask my father go c a urologist....and hav to pay everytin over again....so noob...aizz....sumore my father now dun feel so pain d....so he say no need waste money go c...i said dun be STUPID...u dun feel dun mean dun hav....soooo stuborn headed....later wan things be serious den oni go c??pek chek oni!!money oni....keep got use??no more find again na!!plus i'm not ur expenses anymore oso.....ZzZzZz....

oh huhu....i getting my lenses soon.....a courtesy from my sis.....check out her website at -.- www.i-geo.blogspot.com
it's quite affordable la i think.....so if ever u wanna change a newer look/type of lenses u can try them!!well i can't wait to try mine....:P OH!!special sem starting soon....!!T.T studying again........just hope i can add POM......eagerly waiting my results for last sem....hehe....anticipating my 'hardwork' results....huhu...well good luck to u all oso leh!!i'm sure mine not half as good as those jipet dean list students....but at least i wun fare too badly!!

~~LisT To WanNa Do~~
1)Fix the piano so i can learn my -to learn how to play- list of songs!!
2)Work work work~~money money money
3)Play play play~~fun fun fun
4)LEARN punctuality!!
5)Bowling!!Basketball!!Keep FIT!! ^^
6)FinD LoVe~~!!lolx....

pray Lord dat u'll bless us all wif good things.....good health.....pray dat everytin shall fall as You plan....dat my father may be cured of wateva sickness he has gained....dat we may all be bless wif journey mercy.....pray dat i'll be forgiven 4 all my wrong doings and my sins......dat i may repent over them....and hopefully be able not to repeat them....pray dat the 'temper' attitude may corrected in all of us.....dat way peaceful times shall be ahead......pray dat You'll help me and my family pass thru the obstacles we face and dat we may not lose heart on anytin....pray dat everytin will be fine....guide me and lead me to the path set right in Your eyes....i thank you for everytin!~~!and pray once more for forgiveness and dat i may learn in all things to come.....and dat i am able to play the piano like half a pro and find love too(just jokin...lolx)~!!
In Jesus name,i pray...AMEN~!!

SoNgZ~~
try Olivia's A little of pain from NANA!!
try Toploader-Dancing in the Moonlight!!

many kinds of ppl in this world.....

but there's just 1 kind of ppl i really so much dislike....ppl who call one another hypocrites and judge them as if they were themselves so damn the bloody holy.....pls....look at the mirror urself....wat should hav turned out to be 'relaxing' and 'fun' became a judgemental place....i laugh at the very words spouted out....'God knows who u r'...duh!!thewise u??u dun even know a single thing and u claimed as though u're almighty...all-knowing....makes me wanna puke...just becoz u let ur bloody emotions take control and u spout out such words...look at the mirror n c if it's written GOD over ur forehead....

i understand when ppl say thing out of frustration and all things....u noe...anytin could happen....but WTF!!hell as if i ain't got no emotions....i hate getting blamed 4 no bloody reason at all!!i'm already so darn tired and just wanna hav some time of fun...n this is wat i deserve???hypocrite...lolx...or so i was called...oh wateva....ppl who puts on a mask when he goes out n another when he does another thing has absolutely no rights to using dat word....by right...no 1 has the rights....yeah but now there c0mes a 'holy' person wif the right to use it....yeah coz he deillussionised the word GOD on his forehead....no wonder he's acting all high n mighty.....wat a waste of time....but the sentence 'not everytin in this world in meant for u....definitely not every ppl is gonna be right wif u.....' is so darn true.....really.....wat is the meaning of frens this dayz??i guess the true meanings all died out....it's just an empty word afta all.....

and i actually said to one of my frens i'd keep the fouls off my mouth but i just can't do it now....i'm so darn bursting full wif energy inside me....i can't believe it!!!anytin can really happen...really....i feel so sorry for th world wif the kind of people liek dat out there....so darn pissed....ping yew i so understand how u feel.....dat in this world there r ppl who dun giv a damn of how other ppl feels cept 4 their own things....the world and it's ppl is so wagamama!!!perhaps i ought to do the same......i have sinned once again.....

huhu~~^^

finalz is next week!!!is time to put ur lfie on the line to achieve ur goals....had beeeeenn so bzzz...wif assignments and projects and all at the last minute...haha!lucky everytin finally ended on friday which was yesterday!wanna thank si panda 4 helping me wif the video 4 my project...


this is the video i made...sorry 4 the blur font colours in the beginning...i did it the 1st time...din noe the quality will be so bad at youtube...

i wanted to put the Dissidia Version-To Zanarkand.....but it's too short...so i changed...aizz...i really love this piece of music.....can sum1 teach me play on the piano???pretty plsssss......i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really wan to learn to play this piece of music on the piano.....................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!


taken this from my fren's blog aka mister kelv....

and i have yet to receive news from AirAsia...perhaps this could only be a dream...haha....i've never been lucky in my life.....it's just never meant to be.....well...i guess my life just has to go on as it is now....finalz luu....though life's a bit sad nowadayz....i'm sure...there'll be things to look 4ward to the future....hmm.....i'm sure there is 1 now too...i'm sure....good luck 2 every1 for finalz....all the best n hav fun.....peace^^...time to study again....T.T

hmmpphh.....

just submitted my application unto airasia yesterday....hopefully everytin turns out ok.....aizzz.....almost couldn't submit coz of kmc....luckily manage to connect into the server in the utmost last minute.....

yesterday was also my numec test.....the only test in which i am confident i could score 100....lolx...but turns out in the end...i'm just not 1 to get 100....lolx.....stupid silly mistakes....gosh!!darn ittttt!!!!

finalz is coming along.....feel liek i dun have enuf time to study.....just feel so heavy......so.....aizzz......thinking bout wat would happen in my future....i really dunno......i can't c a damn thing......oh...haha yesterday when i was chatting wif yap afta mcd yesterday....lolx....i decided to make myself a beta person...:P....dat is to cut alllllllll the dumb foul words coming out from my mouth.....it's not exactly dat i speak much of those but i do at times.....n dat is wat's gonna be cut off!!

looking back at my past.....i feel so funny....haha....really all the silly things i did.....nah it's just suddenly reminisce about the past......oh well....hahaha.....notin much to write oso leh....everytin's over.....it's the end of another sem....so soon....and tis past so much time......signals test on tuesday.....beta jia you 4 it n finalz too......wish all my frenz good luckz and all the best in finalz....

Watt's Going On...?

The 3rd Watt's Performance Night has just ended!result?well i guess we faired pretty well.....many thanks to the people involved in realizing this event and oso to the audiences as well!!To those who hav no idea or watsoeva about it,it's an event where it is made for the music bands in my uni to perform their self-composed music....It turned out pretty well....Most of us was surprise to c many a big crowd of ppl overflowing into the DSS hall.....quantity wise,i guess it's very successful!!My last event to be made along wif my frens,i feel much accomplished....havin been a part of such a great event.....of course it's not all too perfect....but 4 being 1st timers....it's pretty darn good already...:P

In the making of this event,> 3 months had we started the preps.....n now.....the event itself is over.....time flies by so fast.....i can still remember when we had just our 1st meeting....n all of a sudden we're already at the hall itself....witnessing wat i can say 4 now....1 of the biggest event in Uniten....i'm just grateful dat everytin turns out well.....there had been struggles and obstacles especially when the clock was ticking fast towards the date of the event....sumhow everything was managed well enuf!!hearing compliments such as 'u guyz hav a very good management team!' was very pleasing to our ears...:P...hmmm!more so when it was from the TNC himself,kak sya and encik arrifin!!well...so far i've heard more positive feedback den negative ones....but i'm sure there's plenty of negative remarks and so i heard.....but wat's most important is we did our best!!n we ain't perfect no matter how....!!just thankful and grateful dat all the teams did their part very well!!till sumtimes i felt not too useful myself....hahahaha.....pls do 4giv me though.....if i had ever done anytin wrong or offended any1!!

this will serve as a very good memory 4 me.....the bands were great....everytin ran quite smoothly.....the dance and all......just awesome..!!even afta all the events dat i hav been part of....none seem to be able to fill me as much as this does......i'm sure every1 of us,despite being overly-busy and slacking on studies due to the making of this event especially the committes,i'm sure every1 feels good about this event!!will be putting up pics on the event later when i receive them....plus my 1st time wearing formal+blazer....lolx....i feel so stupid....hahahaha......so wierdo.....but it's all a very good experience!!i feel myself more 'changed'!!in a beta way.....

kinda miss it leh......ended already....haha......feel so 'freeeeeee' but more bz now.....coz many many many assignments to do and studies to catch up.....finalz is coming soon.....i need to brush myself up and get ready......brace the future!!!Thx every1 for giving me sucha good experience!!and to my frens thx for coming to support us!!i hope u all really realllly enjoyed it!!!time to go back to monotonous dull study life.........aizzz........T.T~~

the power of dreams.....my passion.....!!

dreams....ever since i was young.....i had dreams....but as u noe...dreams were ever changing all the time depending on our own mood and interest at dat point of time....but....as i grow up i slowly noticed my passion.....which became my dream.....my dream dat could be my ambition as well.......my very desire to do.....dat thing 4 life perhaps......

as i woke up yesterday morning.....several....not so pleasurable things happened.....well....life's liek dat.....which prompted me to look 4 part-time jobs.....considering the situation i'm in now....but this oso helped me coincidentally to actually hav found a forum which tells me more about achieving my dream.....reading this forum....i actually feel dat my dream would become......a reality itself....i poured my attention 4 the next 3 hours scouring thru the posts previous ppl had posted.......

i fulfilled every requirement needed.....almost all,xept 4 swimming(dunno swim......)....all i needed was the chance to get interview and pass all its test to be accepted.....i'd be more den willing to try out 4 it.....put my heart my passion my soul unto it......just so dat i can fulfill this dream of mine.....i'm willing to stop halfway on my engineering to pursue this if given the chance.....but there's so many doubts.....soooo many.....till i begin to doubt myself.....was it possible....i thought....all this years.....will this just stay as a dream 4 me??i will pray....pray hard....4 this chance to be mine.....to finally grasp the sky wif my own 2 hands....to feel....the meaning of 'freedom'...........mmmmmm..........!!

n so i decided to package everytin well enough 4 a good 1st impression.....mending my common looking resume....trying to find ways to excite it in a good format.....i'm so excited.....dat afta reading all the post....i hav no need for waiting 4 the intake to open....but just go n send ahead 1st 4 the interview and test....n possibly den if i pass i can wait till the next intake to enter.....i'm really praying dat this might actually work out.....n dat i can actually pass dat awfully hard test(or presumably so)...my dream cannot be taken down just liek this!!!bless me oh Lord~~!!!

MAS or Air Asia.....only 2 possibilities 4 me to apply.....as SQ only takes in their  'home' citizens....hmmm...actually air steward oso not bad geh if cannot be pilot....but air steward's job is so hectic....'service' kononnya.....i can c unappreciative and tak munasabah faces of the 'clients/customers' already.....sumtimes outrageously obnoxious!!air steward/stewardess are oso humans pls!!!dun make things hard 4 every1!!.....=.=""""".......humans ain't born perfect@@!!hopefully......pray dat i may succeed!!!my dream to fly!!!!!vrrrrroooooommmmm!!!!!seronoknya.....:P

2day is dreams day.....because as i was looking 4 part-time jobs.....i found something interesting.....hehe....atasteboutique.com as they call themselves.....they have liek so many creations of cakes!!so lovely!!nyaamm nyaamm~~!!!i have alwayz thought of becoming a pastry chef too!!!because i love to eat sweet things and c pretty things!!though i ain't good at art itself.....but i appreciate the beauty of pretty artworks!!just makes ur mouth drool and ur heart melts!!!but i din noe where to start.....and my parents wouldn't allow such things to happen....lolx....i guess...it's only possible to become my hobby baking sweet things liek cookies and cakes....T.T......try out atasteboutique.com....it's got many lovely designs on cakes.....gosh...i wanna work there int he kitchen....hehehe.......makes me wanna bake cookies already....gonna try out something this weekend......sumtin cheap....yet tasty!!!cooking n baking^^my favzz!!!


i personally love this!! coz it's pinkish and pretty(cute too!!)!!!:P
(www.atasteboutique.com)

engineering is so so not fitting 4 me....aizz...but the only choice 4 me....with/without interest.....i can only continue wif so lil passion....still amazed at how i can actually continue in a state liek this......but den.....so many years liao....gradually becoming better...lolx....mebe used to it d....study study oni loh.....aizz....helps me in applying for a CPL(Commercial Pilot License) coruse too...:P....helps me get a place easier without a big shot recommendation.....awww....but thiknig bout the debts i'm gonna hav to bear afta grad....oso dunno how...mebe work 1 year or so 1st....and 25 go apply....coz 26 is age limit.....T.T......so olllllddddd.................need save money d now.....jobs pls gimmeee......gimme jobsss pls......money and cash beta.....:P....let everytin go well plsss!!!!

songss!!-been listening much to instrumentals this day....OST from FF and hanazakiri kimi no tachi e!!it's been good....and found some rather good singers....but forgot the names and i'm not at my laptop now....writing from cendi...lolx.....anyway will post some up...soon....if i feel liek it....thx 4 reading newayz....:P

just end wif a simple prayer......
Lord help us in our ways...for we alone cannot bear to take our path by ourselves...less we make mistakes more and more till they becomes....unbearable.....guide us each day as we go along....in decisions we can't make or can make, guide us still and lead us to the path dat has been set right by You.Let us not falter to temptations or any wickedness and strengthen us to guard all evil....i pray for every1 dat they may all be bless abundantly according to Your will....Bless us all wif good health....Bless us all in everytin we do dat we do it right in Your eyes....Pray dat everytin goes well 4 me and every1 too.....Forgive us all 4 our wrongdoings and set us right from wrong.....Pray and thank you Lord.....In Jesus name....Amen!!